Little Man is not so little anymore!
Hopefully there are some of you still out there… I have missed everyone! Photography has taken a back seat in my life the last year and I decided to put the growing of my business on hold to take care of my aunt, who I have mentioned in the blog in the past… She was battling cancer and the cancer won. The last year has been spent taking care of her, my son – who we found out had minor developmental delays and who has two therapy sessions a week, my gram who is still with us and is slowly declining due to dementia. I found myself barely being able to get out of the house, let alone work on growing a photography business. So I decided to take a breath and focus on my family first. Unfortunately we lost my aunt the beginning of this year to a long battle with cancer and 3 weeks later lost my husband’s brother at 27 to complications with his lupus. I began this fog for months which I have just climbed out of. I had a cold that lasted for months and could barely get out of bed. I found out I might have Rheumatoid arthritis which is a scary prospect and until the rheumatologist confirms it I refuse to believe it (even though my bloodwork and joints tell me otherwise), but most of all I think I just checked out mentally. There was no pressing matters or worries anymore. No running a million places or hoping for miracle cures. There was just silence. For seven years, I have taken care of my husband’s grandmother and aunt and the last two and a half my little man but never myself. It’s been a blur of doctors, therapists, ER visits, chemotherapy, and now funerals. Now there are only occasional checkups and little man is now cleared of therapy and is flourishing. I had been contributing to the deals blog and trying to make some connection to the outside world because I was starting to feel like a recluse, however, my efforts were futile. I realized that I missed photography and people who shared the love of photography… In January at the height of what was happening, I realized I hadn’t picked up my camera in months. I hadn’t taken a picture or looked at a tutorial, wrote in this blog, or even logged on Clickin Moms which used to be part of my daily routine and I was extremely sad. Before I couldn’t imagine a life without photography and for months I had been living it without even realizing it. I have been taking pictures for decades almost involuntarily. My camera was an extension of myself, it was part of who I was, it was my faithful companion but in the craziness of the last year, I put it down and forgot to pick it back up again.
So I have decided to start back up again and immerse myself with learning more about photography and sharing it with you all. I've decided to find some happiness in the craziness that life has thrown at us. I just bought myself a continuous light kit (so I can master the studio lighting) that I just got off of ebay and some new lenses. I have even some events booked for friends and friends of friends. I have a huge idea list and lots of deals to share with you…. So hopefully you all can forgive me for being gone so long and share this journey with me:)
Jen
